Pulling myself together...

It's something I have to do now. It's day one of this deployment, and I have been a mess. Not only am I working on getting through the first few days ( cause the those are always the hardest) but I am also arguing with my mom. Apparently the world can only come crashing down at once. Last night was the last night before deployment and things with Josh were crazy. I was exhausted and he was preparing to board his ship. Oye, things could just not go our way. I hate how the Marine's can't do anything that work in our favor. Which I know is how the military works. I am trying to keep my eye on the prize, cause I know once this is all over then me and Josh get to get married and start our lives together. Just gotta make it through these days and hopefully I will have a story that can make every laugh!!! :)

Road Rage

Okay, I will admit..... I have road rage. Not that get out of your car and kill somebody kind, but I do a lot of yelling and cursing at cars around me. I can't help it that it makes me upset when other cars don't know what they are doing. I was driving into Downtown Denver this afternoon to pick up my daughter from her father and here are just a few things that irked me:

1.) Riding the lane line does not signify that you want into my lane. If you turn on your signal I will gladly let you in, but until then. STAY IN YOUR LANE.
2.) If I can text and drive ( yes, I know this is illegal, but so is speeding and yet people still do it... and I also don't do it with my daughter in the car) better than you can drive without doing anything else, then we have a serious problem.
3.) The posted speed limit is the same going up the hill and also going down the hill. Going up doesn't mean you should suddenly let off the gas and go 10 miles slower. This is the same for going down the hill people.
4.) When you merge, put your blinker on. I don't have to yield to you, you have to yield to me and watching for when an appropriate would be to get in traffic is YOUR JOB. Not mine.
5.) BRAKING. If everyone does the posted speed limit, and learns how to merge, there is no reason for braking. There should only be breaking if there is an accident.


Sometime I swear I am the only person in Denver that actually knows how to drive. I know everyone is a bad driver, and come rush hour it gets worse. But there should be a few things that everyone should just master. END RANT.

You Win Some & You Lose Some

No, I am not talking about arguments or fights. I am talking about friends. Lately I have hit one of those patches where friendships are less meaningful and few and far between even. It seems like since becoming a military SO that every one who is outside of that circle feels like they can't be my friend anymore. Really people?! I actually had a one "friend" tell me that " I am not going through the same things you are, so I don't really know what to say." You wanna know what I have to say to that?! BULL. A friend isn't a person who will let you down or stop talking to you just because you go through different things. I always believed that a friend was someone who was supposed to sit there and listen to you whine, offer up advice, and so on. Since when did everyone stop talking because of different things going on? THAT'S LIFE.


I've noticed that more and more, the people who I used to talk to quite frequently have dwindled away and I feel like I have just a handful of people I even talk to anymore. No one's life is easy, and I know life happens and we sometimes forget to reconnect with those we haven't spoken to in a while. It's important to have those bonds  because those people obviously came into my life for a reason. But I guess for now it's whatever. I am thankful for the people who've stuck with me through my entire craziness of a life I <3 you all, and you know who you are!!! And if you're not sure, well then I am obviously not talking to you.

Planning A Wedding....

Is certainly hard enough when your fiance lives with you. Now try planning a wedding when he's 6,000 miles away and about to deploy. And  let me say this, this is NOT my first go around with this. Last year we planned to get married on June 15th and he was getting ready to deploy for Afghanistan. So I was left to plan and put together a big old wedding all the while he was in a place I couldn't even talk to him!!! Now here I am, almost a year later in the same position. At least this go around we have communication so we can talk and get the details sorted out but still I am left to throw everything together myself, and in half the time. We want to get married when he comes home in January.  We've at least got all our ideaas set and we know what we want, but we are still waiting on orders!!!! Which will be a whole other post when the time comes. OYE!!! I've been waiting over a year for this day to come and now that I know it will be here before I know. I can't wait to have the wedding of dreams and marry the man of my dreams, I just want to try not to go crazy in the process!!!!

Welcome!!!!!

Well, I figured I should try this whole blogging thing after reading a few friends' blogs. I guess I will tell all of you a little about myself. I am 23 years old and for the most part I am your average person of that age. The only thing, or things rather, that set me apart from everyone else is the fact I am marrying into the Marine Corps (which all of my military wives will understand that the Corps comes first, hahaha) and I have a 2 year old daughter named Makenzy.My fiance is stationed in Japan and has been there for our entire relationship, which we have been together for 2 years. It's rough being apart but he finally gets to come back to the states in January. Praise the Lord for that!! We will get married when he gets back and then thus starts a new crazy life!!! Until then, me and my daughter are here in Colorado anxiously awaiting his arrival. All 3 of us are gearing up for deployment #2, the second one in the last 12 months. This one is not to Afghanistan, and it's not even a combat deployment, but it still blows!!!  I hope this whole spilling my guts will get me through this deployment and every can laugh and cry with me!!!!!!